I was rummaging through my stuff a moment ago, trying to find things that could maybe evoke a tinge of happy memories, things that were older than 8 years. I was disappointed, because the only things left are the damned certificates, the damned results slips. Photos, all gone. Either hidden in some corner, or thrown away, most probably by myself, in a bid to to tidy up my room.
I was so nonchalant, with these objects of memories, and also with most of the people, because to me, they were just part of my journey of life. I always felt, that they will always be somewhere around. I was wrong. I always thought, maybe there will come a day when we are both free and missing each other enough to meet up. That day, will never come.

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

-Dr Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy-

Bike sex man placed on probation

A man caught trying to have sex with his bicycle has been sentenced to three years on probation.

Robert Stewart, 51, admitted a sexually aggravated breach of the peace by conducting himself in a disorderly manner and simulating sex.

Sheriff Colin Miller also placed Stewart on the Sex Offenders Register for three years.

Mr Stewart was caught in the act with his bicycle by cleaners in his bedroom at the Aberley House Hostel in Ayr.

Gail Davidson, prosecuting, told Ayr Sheriff Court: "They knocked on the door several times and there was no reply.

"They used a master key to unlock the door and they then observed the accused wearing only a white t-shirt, naked from the waist down.

"The accused was holding the bike and moving his hips back and forth as if to simulate sex."

Both cleaners, who were "extremely shocked", told the hostel manager who called police.

Sheriff Colin Miller told Stewart: "In almost four decades in the law I thought I had come across every perversion known to mankind, but this is a new one on me. I have never heard of a 'cycle-sexualist'."

Stewart had denied the offence, claiming it was caused by a misunderstanding after he had too much to drink.

The bachelor had been living in the hostel since October 2006 after moving from his council house in Girvan.

He now lives in Ayr.
Story from BBC NEWS:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/go/pr/fr/-/1/hi/scotland/glasgow_and_west/7095134.stm

Published: 2007/11/14 17:36:03 GMT

Im pretty glad to know that im not the horniest toad on earth...wahahahaha..

Just read today's wanbao, you know the report flaming the hey gorgeous show (xiao hua xiao cao). Lack of sensitivity when choosing the challenges, lack of general knowledge and the likes. And that really set me thinking, not about them, but about the rest of us in general.

Before commenting, did it ever occur to anyone that its actually primarily just an entertainment variety show? Why take such a serious view on it? Look, asking them to remove their undergarments, or whatever form it may take, is just all in the name of good fun, if you are able to look at it from the right perspective. If you don't believe, just ask any young kid to watch the show. To them, it is just plain funny, or maybe "eeyir, shy shy..hahaha". Its those people, whose already tainted minds suggested otherwise, which led them to jump to conclusions that this segment was "sexually suggestive" and "polluting the minds of our young". You are the one with the polluted mind, because you fail to see the fun element and purpose behind each segment, only plainly letting sex guide your myopic views. In a nutshell, you fail to see the big clean picture, but only focus on what you choose to see, and then making a big fuss out of nothing at all. Get a life.

On top of that, people only see that hey bloody hell an undergrad dont even know whose our minister mentor. But have they ever thought of the situation surrounding them as they were posed that question? They were on national tv, and for most of them it was a first. Before commenting, why don't you try to be on national tv and see how well you perform. I bet my last penny at least 70% cannot even answer the primary school level math question correctly given the same circumstances. I was on national tv before, live, and it was for all of 6 seconds, and the focus wasnt even on me. The camera just happened to sweep past me. I was performing in NDP, and for your info, although the performance was a routine I could have done with my eyes closed, the very moment the camera lens focused on me, my legs were trembling and I almost screwed up.

My point is, why are we always so critical and so unforgiving? Is it our society that makes us this way? Speaking of which, you cannot really blame us for not knowing all these general knowledge, because cmon, it aint tested in the exams! This is the way we have evolved, aint it? What is important is what will come out for exams. And the rest? Forget it, good to know, don't know also never mind. Because essentially, it doesn't really matter. And those who are my age can testify to this. How many idiots memorised the whole history/geography/social studies/economics notes? Spot topic what, sounds familiar? And even then, when studying for a particular topic, how many aim to know the topic inside out? Many just aim to know what will be tested for exams? But can you blame us? We are just being exam-smart. Ace your exams, and you will go places, even if you do not know a lot of things. Even if you know every single cabinet minister of every single country, if you flunk your exams, you are out. End of story.

There are so many other things for you people to comment on, the budget, the policies, the environment, and you choose to flame the young for not knowing things that were not tested in the exams. Who were the ones who told the us that scoring in our exams was everything? Come on man, get a life. Give us a break. Comment on things that are more important, like the environment. There's a wave of green movement going on the past two weeks, but I think no one even bothered. Just look at Singapore River. As polluted as ever. There are so many things about our lifestyle that is so environmental-unfriendly, but its receiving much less attention than one undergrad not knowing whose our minister mentor. Its high time we rethink our priorities.

An open letter (to those who will see it)

Dear all concerned,

Finally, the day has come for me to ORD. Although I hate to admit it, this place has given me a lot of memories, some worth remembering, some better to be forgotten. The second half of my NSF life was made more colorful, not by the white walls, nor the dark green vehicles. It is you, the people in the MT line, that made my life so eventful, in every sense of the word. I learnt many things, from each and everyone of you, lessons that will accompany me through whats left of my journey of life.

I still remember, the very first day I stepped into GLS, I was reminded that I was no longer a cadet, but an officer, so its high time i shake off that cadet mentality. The person who reminded me is none other than the warrant officer whom I would come to respect the most in my days in MT line. My worst nightmare came in the form of duty planning. To those who helped me take so many last minute battle injects, I sincerely thank you for relieving my headache. To the two champions who helped me co-ordinate all the duties, xuhao and shrek, thanks for easing my burden. There were people who purposely screwed up my planning, and people who played punk with me. I would like to thank them as well, for they made me realise how dark this world can be, and made me appreciate those who helped me even more.

My time in TCS was good, with dallan and wo pat guiding me along with their experience and shermen, and subsequently amos being there to talk nonsense with me day in, day out, not forgetting dragon, who still hasn't quit smoking. We were just like one family, helping each other out, sharing each others problems and burdens. The few times that we stayed back in camp were really enjoyable, as well as an eye opener. Even if its absurdly OT, nobody minded as we did it as a family.

Subsequently, when the time came for us to split, there were trepidations. By some stroke of fortune, the whole family was kept intact, and transited over to 160 MT line. Again, it was like one family, only this time, with new members. But the spirit, the camaraderie, the sense of belonging never changed.

I will not miss the water cooler, the white board, the computers, the steyrs or the Ivecos. Maybe I will miss my favourite couch, where I spent countless afternoons snoring away. But what I will miss most, is wo pat's booming voice, dallan's countless musan stories, dragon's tattoos, amos' infectious laughter, francis' blur "i don't know" look, kesavan's "cantik", Joel's initiative, shrek's snide remarks, sanjay and ashok's twin brother act, and many many more. As much as all of you will choose not to believe so, when you are about to leave, there are really things you are unable to let go. It is the people who have, in one way or another, left their footsteps in your life. All of a sudden, you are leaving, and not going to see them anytime in the near future. It is then that you will start to feel pangs of nostalgia, which is exactly what I am experiencing now.

What I want to tell all of you is, treasure the times spent in Chong Pang. You never know, this may be the place where you forge the deepest friendships. Appreciate everyone for who they are, and treat everyone like a member of your family. That is how your life here can be made more enjoyable and memorable.

I recognise that many of you are feeling the strains of the commitments of an ops unit. But before you proceed to complain, please take a step back and think. The commanders are feeling more stressed up than you. They already have a lot to handle at the moment. On top of that, there will be no MTO for the month of Nov. So please spare a thought for the commanders, and do not give them anymore unnecessary pressure. Remember, we are all family, and we are in this together.

Some of you also feel that you are being outcasted by the unit. Let me assure you that you are not alone in feeling this way. We are new members of the unit, and logisticians, hence people will definitely look at us differently. We have to stand out, and prove our critics wrong. In order to do that, firstly we have to be united. Remember, we are all one family.

Lastly, I want to thank all of you for giving me such wonderful memories, especially wo pat, dallan, dragon, shermen and amos. Without you people, life in MT line would have been unbearable.

Guys, stick it out there. Things will get better. Tough times don't last, tough men do. Farewell, 160 MT line.

Signing off,
Your MTO